Chez Moi

Whether I shall turn out to be the hero of my own life; or whether that station will be held by anybody else, these reblogs must show.

Chez Moi: I was working today and I saw a bird. He must have fallen from a tree...

velociraptors-in-hats:

mynameiseoin:

velociraptors-in-hats:

mynameiseoin:

I was working today and I saw a bird. He must have fallen from a tree and couldn’t fly and he cracked his head. I didn’t know what to do. I stayed with him for a while. I saw him, at first, from a distance. He looked fine. I prepared for the sadness that comes when a friend leaves when you…

I felt the same way today when I had the misfortune of being unable to do anything but watch as a squirrel ran into a busy street and died. Something about seeing the loss of something so small and innocent makes all the world’s great cosmic injustices seem all the greater. If a little bird or squirrel can’t quite make it, what does that mean for the rest of us?

I know. I just hate that there was nothing I could do to take away his pain. Humans do that so instinctually. We cope with life, pain, and death. But the creatures that don’t have that die, and maybe it’s easier, or maybe it is nothing, but I really just didn’t want him to die alone. But I left in my own selfishness.

It’s really a terrible, terrible thing. It takes all that we humans try to ignore, to pretend like they won’t happen, and puts it in microcosm. Small, innocent creatures die or are In pain every day. So are people. We try to live like that’s not a fact, but then we’re forced to address our own mortality when faced with the end of something we’d normally overlook. How many thousands of birds will you see in your lifetime? But that one little bird in so much pain can change you in a really deep way. It’s strangely beautiful, when you think about it.

Very true.

Chez Moi: I was working today and I saw a bird. He must have fallen from a tree...

velociraptors-in-hats:

mynameiseoin:

I was working today and I saw a bird. He must have fallen from a tree and couldn’t fly and he cracked his head. I didn’t know what to do. I stayed with him for a while. I saw him, at first, from a distance. He looked fine. I prepared for the sadness that comes when a friend leaves when you…

I felt the same way today when I had the misfortune of being unable to do anything but watch as a squirrel ran into a busy street and died. Something about seeing the loss of something so small and innocent makes all the world’s great cosmic injustices seem all the greater. If a little bird or squirrel can’t quite make it, what does that mean for the rest of us?

I know. I just hate that there was nothing I could do to take away his pain. Humans do that so instinctually. We cope with life, pain, and death. But the creatures that don’t have that die, and maybe it’s easier, or maybe it is nothing, but I really just didn’t want him to die alone. But I left in my own selfishness.

I was working today and I saw a bird. He must have fallen from a tree and couldn’t fly and he cracked his head. I didn’t know what to do. I stayed with him for a while. I saw him, at first, from a distance. He looked fine. I prepared for the sadness that comes when a friend leaves when you approach it. But he never moved. I felt a spark of happiness because I love birds. Then when I saw how injured he was I almost vomited. I didn’t think he was alive and I could live with that. But as I walked by, heavily examining him, he turned his head and looked at me. I dropped to one knee to see what was wrong with him. His head was completely smashed in. Organs were exposed. He looked up to me. It was the first time I had ever been able to meet eyes with a wild bird. He was breathing heavily and slow. As if he were human. I saw so many people in the bird’s presence in that moment. He became anyone I’ve ever loved. I wanted to pick him up, but I was afraid that would scare him too much. I didn’t know what to do. You call an ambulance when a human is hurting but who do you call when it is an animal. It could have been any animal, and I still wouldn’t know what to do. I wish he was just dead. I won’t stop thinking about him. I wish I had done more.

I am hoping this is like when you’re at Glory Days and you get the Shark Attack drink. 

I am hoping this is like when you’re at Glory Days and you get the Shark Attack drink. 

(Source: pushthemovement)

keatontheking: mynameiseoin: keatontheking: You guys! What if I got my haircut like this? A bunch of people we telling me it might look cool. But I’m worried it might look chubbier or even more girly. Any transguys have expiernce with cutting their hair real short for the first time? Any input from anyone is welcome too. I’m trying to find a new style soooo yeah The problem with this is it is a pretty common lesbian haircut.  If a lesbian goes this short, it is usually styled this way.  So, sometimes shorter is even better.  I notice I pass better after a good haircut, but you have to pass going in as well so they don’t try and feminize your cut.  Basically I would stay away from Bieber cuts.  He gets crap for looking like a lesbian by society, so it maybe harder for you to pull off this hair as well.  Maybe keep the style but make it a little shorter on top and a lot shorter on the sides. Again, it depends a lot on your face and whether you can pull it off.   Thanks man that was a very thourough explanation. I see what you mean cuz even justin looks a bit girly so I don’t believe ill d able to pull it off No problem. Good luck I know you’ll find a suitable haircut. A haircut that worked well for me was I had it half am inch on the sides and and inch on top. It grew out nicely as well. Just look around online. There are websites that are really great for finding a good haircut.

keatontheking:

mynameiseoin:

keatontheking:

You guys! What if I got my haircut like this? A bunch of people we telling me it might look cool. But I’m worried it might look chubbier or even more girly. Any transguys have expiernce with cutting their hair real short for the first time? Any input from anyone is welcome too. I’m trying to find a new style soooo yeah

The problem with this is it is a pretty common lesbian haircut.  If a lesbian goes this short, it is usually styled this way.  So, sometimes shorter is even better.  I notice I pass better after a good haircut, but you have to pass going in as well so they don’t try and feminize your cut.  Basically I would stay away from Bieber cuts.  He gets crap for looking like a lesbian by society, so it maybe harder for you to pull off this hair as well.  Maybe keep the style but make it a little shorter on top and a lot shorter on the sides. Again, it depends a lot on your face and whether you can pull it off.  

Thanks man that was a very thourough explanation. I see what you mean cuz even justin looks a bit girly so I don’t believe ill d able to pull it off

No problem. Good luck I know you’ll find a suitable haircut. A haircut that worked well for me was I had it half am inch on the sides and and inch on top. It grew out nicely as well. Just look around online. There are websites that are really great for finding a good haircut.

keatontheking: You guys! What if I got my haircut like this? A bunch of people we telling me it might look cool. But I’m worried it might look chubbier or even more girly. Any transguys have expiernce with cutting their hair real short for the first time? Any input from anyone is welcome too. I’m trying to find a new style soooo yeah The problem with this is it is a pretty common lesbian haircut.  If a lesbian goes this short, it is usually styled this way.  So, sometimes shorter is even better.  I notice I pass better after a good haircut, but you have to pass going in as well so they don’t try and feminize your cut.  Basically I would stay away from Bieber cuts.  He gets crap for looking like a lesbian by society, so it maybe harder for you to pull off this hair as well.  Maybe keep the style but make it a little shorter on top and a lot shorter on the sides. Again, it depends a lot on your face and whether you can pull it off.  

keatontheking:

You guys! What if I got my haircut like this? A bunch of people we telling me it might look cool. But I’m worried it might look chubbier or even more girly. Any transguys have expiernce with cutting their hair real short for the first time? Any input from anyone is welcome too. I’m trying to find a new style soooo yeah

The problem with this is it is a pretty common lesbian haircut.  If a lesbian goes this short, it is usually styled this way.  So, sometimes shorter is even better.  I notice I pass better after a good haircut, but you have to pass going in as well so they don’t try and feminize your cut.  Basically I would stay away from Bieber cuts.  He gets crap for looking like a lesbian by society, so it maybe harder for you to pull off this hair as well.  Maybe keep the style but make it a little shorter on top and a lot shorter on the sides. Again, it depends a lot on your face and whether you can pull it off.  

I had a rough day, but this cat looks like he needs a friend.  I am just going to let this cat soothe all my problems. He is awesome. Hi cat. Well you are a bit of a kitten. Hi kitten. I love you.

I had a rough day, but this cat looks like he needs a friend.  I am just going to let this cat soothe all my problems. He is awesome. Hi cat.

Well you are a bit of a kitten. Hi kitten.

I love you.

(Source: desijoliescicatrices, via journeytotheskye)

Taking T naturally

sylynlane:

Is there anyone out there taking T naturally or with T boosters and have researched it and actually found decent information? I can’t seem to either find good enough info or find a website that isn’t contradicting to actually go out and buy it. I just don’t want to waste money and get my hopes up on something that ends up doing nothing. At this point any little change would be awesome until I can start taking T through prescription. Any response would be appreciated!

Well, one thing I do know (that you may also know) is that with your body, right now, has estrogen as the primary hormone.  When your body has an increase in testosterone, your body will see this and convert that testosterone into estrogen.  This will give you the opposite effects than what you want.  So with T supplements and natural transitioning you have to really follow whatever the regimen is or you risk doing the opposite of what you want. Also, natural T supplements could dangerous because some of them out there maybe untested and not heavily researched.  It just isn’t a sound way to go about it from what I see, it doesn’t work unless done absolutely correctly.  It is also a skeptical topic.  If you can’t find sound research, I would wait until you can find more.